Can you believe I’ve been writing this blog for over six years now??! I can’t. I began writing it when I was fresh out of college, had no idea if I could ‘make-it’ as a freelance musician, and had a bar job on the side to supplement my income. My RNCM days were just behind me, and Chet’s was not too far in the past either.
I did bits and bobs of teaching here and there but felt like I wasn’t experienced enough to teach with much authority. Maybe I had imposter syndrome. I thought, why come to me when you could go to someone who’s been teaching for longer than me? Why come to me when I don’t have that many students and am obviously not in high demand?
It’s pretty hard starting out.
Slowly though, confidence grows and I started to see my students doing well. I thought, they must be enjoying my lessons because they keep coming back. Some took exams, some did really, really well in them. Some don’t want to take exams, they just have a passion for music and love the harp or the piano, and these students are every bit as rewarding as the conventional high achievers.
I feel so proud of the little group of students I have, every, single, one of them. Thank you for choosing me to help guide you through this part of your musical journey. I learn from you just as much as you learn from me. Thank you for working hard, thank you for forgiving me when I make mistakes. Thank you for sticking with me. Thank you for sharing your love of music with me.
There is one student who I’d like to give a little mention to. Isabelle Halstead. Earlier this year I had the idea that she should apply for Chetham’s School of Music. I attended Chets for sixth form and going there was one of the best decisions that has been made in my life (at this point I’d like to thank the teachers who prepared me for my Chets audition, Rachel Dent and Honor Wright). While at Chets my playing transformed under the tutelage of Eira Lynn Jones, and it proved to be a spring-board into music college and beyond (and it was a lot of fun). Plus, as one of the best music schools in the country (and maybe even the world) it doesn’t look too bad on the old curriculum vitae either.
So you can imagine the pride I feel when, as a teacher, one of my students is offered a place there from September this year. I’m absolutely over the moon for her, and grateful that I was trusted to guide her on this path. She’s worked so hard, with a lovely and supportive family behind her, and she thoroughly deserves her place there. I’m so excited for you, Isabelle!
It’s easy to slip into a funk sometimes and think how far I have to go in my career. Here I am, almost seven years after graduating and almost thirty years old, still no full-time playing job, bank balance still far from healthy, still living from month to month, no ‘big breaks’ and plenty of failed auditions under my belt. But, just for now, I’d like to look at the positives. My student has been offered a place at one of the best music schools there is. And that’s pretty awesome.
As ever, thanks for reading.
A x